ME???

When I'm with you I'm a damsel in distress,
saved by my knight in shining armor out from this mess.
with your lean arms you will carry me.
Is that supposed the story should be?

Every night I look forward to see you
and at night a text coming from you.
The online chat we sometimes do
makes my heart pound, I don't know what to do!

So I asked you to have a pact with me.
Never fall for each other that's how it should be
but right now I think it's really impossible,
I thought it was easy and just that simple.

I'm sleepless and restless taking me a flight.
You keep haunting my thoughts every night
Now I see to it that I can watch your game.
I want to see you play, should I be blamed?

I wish I could stop myself from seeing you,
I wish I could run away and just forget you
but I can't find the will to stay away.
I can't even survive not seeing you for a day!

I am so damn into you and I don't know why.
Hell I tried to deny it and I tried to lie.
Why did I ever accompany my friend?
Now I've hurt her and it can't be mend.

She was so into you and so in love I know,
so the proper way is to let you go.
Please just let me go, just let me be!
yet part of me still says please choose ME...

Reality?

Rushing again just to have breakfast,
wishing that our conversation will last.
Looking forward for our walk together,
Oh the cab is so slow it seems like forever!

As I emerged from my transportation...
rehearsing what to say that is my mission.
Now you're getting close with a smile on your face,
I wanted to kiss you and feel your embrace.

I hope I look nice and smell like "Green Tea"
coz I know you like that I wish you'll also like me...
so now starting to feel stressed and agitated.
Why am I like this? Hey we already dated!

Now closer and closer alas you are here!
just saying hi my fears just disappear.
Now on the front desk asking me what I will eat
I'll just have coffee and just want to sit.

While eating your sandwich and I sip my coffee,
Monsieur you have mayo on your lips I can see!
as you wipe it off now slowly and gently,
your eyes gazed mine oh that is so lovely!

I'm so falling for you I just couldn't stop.
My feelings are in a bubble just ready to pop!
As we finished our meal getting ready to leave,
you called me Baby! is that a pet peeve?

Walking and holding my hand with a tight grip
are you making sure that I wouldn't slip?
We're getting close now to my work place,
Can we just prolong it can we go through a maze?

Coz we're still together and I'm already missing you,
craving for your kiss are you yearning it too?
as we separate our ways to face reality,
going back to work and end this fantasy...

STAYING OR LEAVING

Trust is all I'm asking nothing more nothing less
I told you everything, I did confess
yet you still doubt me and listen to him
so now my heart is starting to get dim.

Is this goodbye or just a farewell?
Will I see you again coz that would be swell!
Are you leaving me and walk away?
Hear me now come with me please stay.

This is not me begging for your presence
I am usually proud that is my essence.
Why am I like this I know I'm not weak,
the dreams I tried to build is starting to look bleak.

Now if you ask me to get out of your sight
believe me when I say that I'll be alright.
I may be hurt or actually may bleed
but i won't stop you that's what we agreed.

Funny thing is that we made a pact right?
to never fall for each other and discover new heights.
I know that's my idea, I know it's a bad one,
but if you want out consider it done.

I'm gonna be strong Hey I'll be fine!
Don't worry coz the pain will all be mine.
You know that I'm brave and very strong.
I know what we have will end just like a song.

Now can I ask for one last kiss or even just a smile?
or opt for friendship or stay away for like a mile?
Well I will respect whatever decisions you'd come up
I will let you go but loving you I won't stop...

Farewell...

friendship is all i can give no more no less,
yet sometimes you have to give more or take more just to be contented.
this is me, ordinary me yet you still can't see the real me.
i don't lie or make up stories to grab your attention.
if i change my mind, forgive me but this is me, the simple and naive me.
the thoughts, talks and laughter we shared
for me it's an escape from sadness and real life.

you know that i have been longing, waiting and wanting
where are you? where is the person i've been with?
was it me who changed or was it really time to let go?
do i belong to you or i'm just expecting too?
so many questions but still the answers are still vague.
you changed too and i know it's my fault
it kills me more thinking i'm drifting away
please dont stop me, please just let me be...
i'm sorry but please don't take me back
i am not good for you nor the as limpid as the moon
i'm just hiding from the moon...